Mothering Anxiety

The days are shorter and the Holidays are quickly approaching. For many of us, this can be a reminder of family dysfunction and loneliness.

Take a listen as I talk about what I plan to do to combat seasonal depression this year including daily sunshine and setting healthy holiday boundaries.

This is my first summer with 2 kids and boy is my brain going crazy with the overthinking and Anxiety. I have all the feelings over what am I going to do to entertain a very energetic 5 year old and very mobile 10 month old.

I want to plan all the activities but at the same time want to give myself grace over not needing to do everything as well as taking slow days as needed without feeling guilty over not having "the best summer vacation ever."

Take a listen as I talk about all my thoughts and feelings over my first summer alone with both if my kiddos.

After 10 months of Therapy, I am officially discharged.

I will forever be grateful for the opportunity to have been able to go to therapy and everything I learned along the way.

In July 2021, I was crying on my restroom floor looking trying to figure out the answers to things I just couldn't quite get over or wrap my head around. I prayed for answers, prayed for anything that could take away the pain I was feeling in that moment and all I remember was hearing, "Go to therapy."

The next day I made a phone call and within 2 weeks, I had my first appointment and what a true blessing it was.

Take a listen as I talk about my biggest takeaways from Therapy this time around after trying it again after attempting therapy almost 10 years prior and completely failing because I wasn't emotionally mature enough to handle it.

After 2 year of going no contact with my family, I decided to reach out to my Mother. In honor of Mother's Day, I decided to finally talk about it but also because it took me a few months to truly figure out what was going through my head. It wasn't what I expected but I truly believe that it was the reality that I needed. Also a time for me to realize how much more healing I needed to do.

Take a listen as I talk about my experience of finally talking to my Mother after doing some healing work and what I came to realize in between these last few months.

Before you think this is an episode where I say "Breast is Best," it is not. This is an episode about "Mama's Mental Health is best."

I've done both. My daughter was formula fed and I am currently almost at 9 months breastfeeding my son. It has been one heck of a journey I can tell you that and there are many thoughts that need to be said as a Mom who deals with Anxiety.

Take a listen as I talk about what breastfeeding as an Anxious Mom has done to my healing journey.

My 9 year wedding anniversary has come and passed and it took a very "real" and "eye opening" therapy session for me to realize that I've been holding on to the wrong things.

My therapist is great at giving me reality checks and it truly shows my progress during my healing journey beause I can listen and know that she's right without taking offense.

Take a listen as I talk about the harsh reality I came to find even 9 years later.

Guys, it has been a WEEK. Actually, it's been more like 3 weeks & the Anxiety is out of control. I feel as if life lately has been one thing after another and I can't seem to catch a break. So what better time than now then to record an episode when my mind is in that Anxious state.

Take a listen as I talk about where my mind is and what I'm doing to get out of it.

This weeks episode is short but not very sweet. We had a pretty traumatic event happen to us which even towards the end of the week when I thought I was "okay" to record an episode, I still was not.

All I have to say is that Motherhood is not for the Anxious. And truly it was just my Anxiety that made everything a million times worse when everything turned out okay in the end.

Take a listen as I talk about an injury that happened to my daughter where I truly did not know how I was going to survive in the Emergency Room.

The moment of truth.

I have been contemplating this "big announcement" for a few weeks now. I have been scared to make the jump because I was afraid of what that would mean for my Podcast and its success thus far. 

But, I've come to realize, in order for me to continue this healing journey, this is a necessary step to take.

No more distractions, time to focus on only me.

Take a listen as I finally announce what my "big announcement" is and how I came to terms with my decision. 

I am turning 32.

I feel that every birthday you celebrate when you're in a good place mentally should be a big milestone. I never really saw myself getting to live this far because of how bad my depression had been from time to time.

I decided to make an episode on 32 life lessons I have realistically learned in the last 2 years while healing.

Take a listen as I talk about what I've learned as I am days away from turning 32.

Why do we have so much junk? No but like seriously?

Why do we buy so much stuff, so much repetitive stuff, so much unnecessary stuff?

I have decided to get rid of all of our stuff. Like seriously. I have been decluttering every corner because seeing so much stuff gives me Anxiety & I am over it.

Take a listen as I talk about my decluttering my house adventure, what I'm decluttering, and what it's doing for my Anxiety so far. 

Postpartum, what a tricky time & I time where so many changes happen.

For me, it was recovering from a major surgery, taking care of a newborn, & a preschooler too. It was trying to navigate giving myself enough recovery time, while managing two kids, & not letting my Anxiety get the best of me.

Take a listen as I talk about my feelings and emotions during my 4th trimester.

I recorded all these episodes in time to have the raw and vulnerable emotions that come with Pregnancy & Postpartum.

Dealing with Anxiety, being pregnant with your second child, the thought of delivery can be very Anxiety inducing. I was scared that I would go into labor early, I was scared that I would have a panic attack while waiting for my second C section date to arrive, I had every thought you could possibly imagine leading into my delivery date. Fast forward and life had its own plans and at that point, I had no choice but to go with the flow. 

Take a listen as I talk about my birth story with my second child and how I managed to deal with my Anxiety during this very Anxiety inducing time. 

Empathy is a GREAT thing. Being able to feel other people's feeling, being able to relate to people, and being able to listen to people is a great thing. But, as I have learned, it can also be very exhausting.  It has been me learning how to balance other people and my own feelings in order to be able to give those who seek my empathy but also not allow it to drain myself. Take a listen as I talk about the hardships but also the rewards that come with being an Empath. 

We are officially on that final home stretch before baby arrives. I recorded this episode during the time of my pregnancy and it will be airing months after it actually happens. I wanted to document my pregnancy in time while thoughts and feelings were fresh and I didn't have to go back and recollect. 

This entire pregnancy has been so different than my first and I truly believe it is because of the work I have put in and this incredible healing journey I have embarked on. 

Take a listen as I talk about how I was feeling in my third trimester with my daughter and now during my second pregnancy after doing some work on myself.